will you girls please just tell me how I can live life like a normal person even while being unattractive :(
I’m having a mental breakdown and i’ve been going through a deep depression these past few months. I’ve been depressed most my life but i’m at a point where I have simply just lost the will to live because my very happiness is tied to my appearance and it’s always a losing battle.
I’m in my mid 20s. I should have a job, I should be doing something with my life. But my hatred for myself has literally destroyed me. I’ve gone to therapy for years, i’ve tried medication. The problem is me.
There are plenty of unattractive people. Most people don’t look like models. They’re out there living their lives. They’re content. So wtf is wrong with me? I genuinely feel like I just don’t want to live if I have to do it with this face, with this body.
I’ve stopped caring for myself. I haven’t showered in over a month. I rarely brush my teeth. I don’t leave the house unless it’s to get food at night when it’s dark. I started out ugly but the lack of even basic self care has made me uglier.
I get angry when I have to see my face. I used to be able to do my makeup and at least feel confident enough to walk out into the world but I got so exhausted of having to sculpt a new face for myself every morning that I just shut down. I have no eyebrows, small shapeless eyes, no cheekbones, a long face, a wide nose…so you can imagine how long I have to spend on makeup.
And then there’s my ridiculously high hairline and large forehead. I’ve had so many comments in my life about my forehead that i’m traumatized, as stupid as that sounds. I’m black, I hate my hair (mostly my forehead) so I have to spend an extra hour just to get my wig right.
Too much effort required just to look decent when other girls just roll out of bed looking pretty. Post too long. Click here to view the full text.